Ever since I was in pre-school I was always the class clown – not every single year, but most of them.
I used to be able to just logically overcome my own doubts and other people’s too. I could just prove them they could achieve something and I could prove myself the same – that I was able to, that I had skill or that I could improve my skill on something. That has changed.Read More »
It’s no secret that this world we live in is unfair and sometimes just plain boring, annoying and despairful (this is a word, isn’t it?).
We all have some old game we treasure in our hearts. A game we (generally) think is great and probably the single best game we’ve ever played. The feeling of nostalgia we get when thinking of that game/playing that game is unparalleled. Right?
Nostalgia is good. But don’t let it blind you. Many older games were just as bad (or just as good as well) as today’s games are… we just had different ideas, different ways to evaluate the games and an overall different way to see things, since we were younger.
How would you feel if you were a person with good grades, always helping others out when you’re able to, being able to finish your desired course with no problems (only a few minor issues), with time for your hobbies, and then…you can’t land a job? How would you feel? Everyone would feel differently, I’m sure.
For me, however, this plays a major role in my depression and, of course, there are a lot of things that could affect the way you’d feel about that. But, there are 3 main reasons I think have the most impact:
It has been a few years since I started feeling bad about almost everything I did. At first, I assumed it was just a bad phase of my life. But it wasn’t. It didn’t go away. With time it’s only gotten worse and it took me way too long to accept the fact that I actually needed help to overcome this. Thanks to my girlfriend being so understanding, I’ve been able to keep a certain level of sanity and positive attitudes towards all situations – if not for her and my mother, I would’ve lost it, in all honesty.